Musikkitte

1. Last beverage→water
2. Last phone call→ no one
3. Last text message→ "we watched that crazy kid on school today in english lesson XD"
4. Last song you listened to→ Declan Galbraith - An Angel <3
5. Last time you cried→ yesterday O_O

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → yeah lol
7. Been cheated on? → yeah T_T
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? → HELL YEAH
9. Lost someone special?→ to me yes T_T
10. Been depressed?→ yea
11. Been drunk? → yup

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. black
13. blue
14. pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends → yeah :D
16. Fallen out of love → yeah =.=
17. Laughed until you cried → last night xD
18. Met someone who changed you → yup ;D
19. Found out who your true friends were→ yup :Di love them :D
20. Found out someone was talking about you → yup xD
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ hahaha i wish xD
22. How many people on your friends list do you know inreal life → on tagged 3 stk and one in sky :D
23. How many kids do you want to have→ 1-2? xD
24. Do you have any pets → 3cats and 2 dogs ^o^
25. Do you want to change your name→ yea!!
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ swimmed in the pool in Spain xD
27. What time did you wake up today → 06.30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ chatting xD
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → TO MOVE!!!
30. Last time you saw your father→ 4 months ago... =.="
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → my face =.=
32. What are you listening to right now → Arashi - love so sweet *___* xD
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → people on msn =="
36. Whats your real name → Nikita Kiya
38. Zodiac sign: cancer ♫
39. Male or female→ Female
43. Hair color → dyed black
44. Long or short → long
45. Height → 167cm
46. Do you have a crush on someone? → yeah~! i have an crush on the same guy like 5 years now O_o
47. What do you like about yourself? → my eyes
49. Tattoos → i wish...
50. Righty or lefty → left handed


FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → something in my belly when i was like 6months? O.o
52. First piercing → ears
53. First tattoo? i wish
54. first bff --> Nana
55. First sport you joined → climbing :D
56. First pet → 2 cats and 1 dog [ i miss them~! ]
57. First vacation remembered → South Africa
58. First concert--> Tokio Hotel :D
59. First crush→ Tatsuya...
60. First alcohol drink→ vodka xD got all hyper xD

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → nothing
62. Drinking --> nothing
63. I'm about to→ throuw my laptop out of the window x.x
64. Listening to → Arashi - Wish
65. Waiting for → to move lol xD

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? → yup
67. Want to get married? → yup
68. Careers in mind? → hmm being stylist of an famouse band or something ^w^

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE PREFFERED SEX?
69. Lips or eyes → both
70. Hugs or kisses → both
71. Shorter or taller → taller
72. Older or Younger → Older
73. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic
74. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
75. Tattoos or piercings→ both
76. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
77. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant ----> both xD

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger → erm yes
80. Drank hard liquor → yeah
81. Lost glasses/contacts → dont use any of them~!
82. Sex on first date → maybe O.o
83. Broken someone's heart → i guess i have T_T
84. Had your own heart broken → yea Y___Y
85. Been arrested?→ nope
86. Turned someone down → yeah
87. Cried when someone died → YES T____T
88. Laughed when someone got hurt? --> i have once

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → not really x.x
90. Miracles → yup
91. Love at first sight → yeah
92. Heaven → idk =.=
93. Santa Claus → nope
94. Kissing on the first date? → hell yea xD
95. Angels → yup :D and devils xD

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → HELL YEAH T_T
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → no
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? → maybe? O.o
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without?→ music~!
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? →yup xD

I'm sorry for hurting you
I'm sorry for making you cry
I'm sorry I didn't realize why
I'm sorry for not understanding you new right
I'm sorry for all those fights
I'm sorry for not listening
I'm sorry for not trying
I'm sorry I failed you
I'm sorry I didn't try
I'm sorry for not caring
I'm sorry for not supporting you
I'm sorry I really am
I'm sorry it was too late
I'm sorry I cried all night
I'm sorry I never found you
I'm sorry your hearts lost
I'm sorry I couldn't cure it
I'm sorry but I'll try now
I'm sorry if its too late
I'm sorry but I have to try
I'm sorry for being so bad
I'm sorry for being so down
I'm sorry for not understanding you when I wasn't even around
I'm sorry for underestimating you
I'm sorry I let you fall that time
I'm sorry for losing your heart
I'm sorry I wish things where ok
I'm sorry for being a idiot
I'm sorry, I 'm sorry

Hi everyone^^ an new blogg from me today ^^

this time i have an lil problem: im gonna move to Holland in up coming month!
at school they are awful to me,and even so i cry because i dont want to leave at all! or maybe its because im afraid how the school in Holland will be? well it will be diffrent from here!! like the language! i may already speak dutch but my writing isnt so good thought.

MY TEACHER IS EVIL!!

my teacher wants to arrange an good bye party for me! i dont want to go! cuz i dont want to cry infront of my whole class,and espacially when nobody cares if i leave!! i have lived here for 9 years so i have like growed up here!

so now my question; shall i go to school that day that they arrange the party? :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(


please tell me? :(

If I hadn't met you that day...

I don't think I would have

Felt this bitterness.

This pain.

This sadness

Cried this much.

But.

If I hadn't met you...

This happiness.

This joy.

This love.

This warmth.

I wouldn't have known that either.

Today, I'm going to look through my tears and up at the sky.

Look to the sky.

Chapter One- A smile

“God, I am so hungry♪♪”

Finally lunch time. Felt like I'd been waiting forever.

Same as always, Mika put

her lunchbox on her desk and opened it.

School is a drag.

The only thing I like about it is eating with Aya and Yuka, my friends from class.

–Mika Tahara–

She's a freshman, who started at this school in April.

It hasn't even been three months

since she got here.

She's met some people she likes and gets along with. She's had some pretty good times.

She's short.

And stupid.

And not that pretty

Doesn't have any special talents.

Or even know what's she wants to do with herself after graduation.

Bright, tea-colored hair she dyed right after she got here.

She's wearing a little makeup, but it looks strange on her, especially at this time of day.

She stumbled out of middle school and right into average.

She had normal friends.

She had normal crushes.

She dated three guys.

I don't know if that's normal, or what.

But, what I know is normal,

is that those relationships all ended fast. That's what she's saying.

She doesn't know real love.

All she knows is how to fool around,

Just that.

Love...

Who needs it?

It was right then...

I met you.

Mika's life: she expected it would end in the same boring way it had begun. Meeting you was going to change all that.

Like always, Mika and Aya and Yuka

wolf down their food.

Why is it everyone gets so quiet when they eat?

The classroom door rattles open,

A guy with one hand in his pocket

walks over

to the three of them.

That guy, he stands in front of them

And he starts talking. Casually.

“Hey! My name's Nozomu. I'm in the class next door. You heard of me?”

The three girls look at each other.

They pretend they don't know what he's talking about.

Just keep eating their lunches.

Since I'd gotten to school, I'd heard a lot of rumors about Nozomu.

A player.

A flirt.

A playboy

It seemed like he was walking around school

with a different girl on his arm every day.

“Watch out for Nozomu!”

“If he's got his eye on you, you don't stand a chance.”

Didn't somebody tell me that...?

He's got a well-proportioned face

on a tall body.

Highlights in his hair,

styled with wax for that “casual” look.

Eyes looking right at you, like they could see... something.

He's got the right stuff for getting girls. There's no question about that.

The problem is his personality.

Maybe... if he was a little more serious...

With all those rumors floating around. I don't even need to tell you I'm not interested.

The three girls continue eating their lunches, pretending they haven't even noticed him.

“Hey, now. You're ignoring me? Let's be friends. ♪ Come on, give me your number.”

His insistence makes me thirsty.

Mika, annoyed, grabbing a bottle of barley tea in one hand

gulping it all down.

“What do you think I'm going to do? It's cool. Just tell me your number.”

There's silence

Suddenly, Aya breaks it.

Mika and Yuka, looking at each other in disbelief.

Aya gives him her number

with a smile.

It's hard to believe this is happening.

I wait until Nozomu has left the room, all puffed up and full of himself.

Then turning to Aya, blurting out:

“Why would you give your number to a guy like that? He's trouble.”

Aya responds to Mika's worry, like it's no big deal.

“What can I say? I like cute guys. Ha.”

Aya's a mature, beautiful woman.

She's stylish and her best feature is

her long hair, a little wavy, and the red-brown of tea.

She's got bad luck with guys. All the ones she's dated are just playing with her...

That's why, even when she gets a boyfriend, it's just a few dates, quick break-up, repeat.

“Aya. Don't get serious with a guy like that.”

To Yuka, with the serious face

Aya turns and lightly replies.

“Don't worry about it.”

School lets out.

I go home, and lay around in my room, watching TV.

That's when...

♪Ring♪

The ring echoes through the room.

There's no name on the caller id.

It's from a number that's not in my phone.

I wonder who it is...

I pick-up to find out.

“Hello...?”

“...”

... silence.

“Hellooo...”

I say it with a little more self-assurance.

Click.

Beep, beep, beep.

They hung up.

Prank call?

Probably a wrong number.

♪Ring♪

Again, the ring echoes through the room.

The same number as before.

They're not going to say anything anyway, I think.

So, I answer like I don't give a shit.

“What?”

“...lo? Hello. Hello?”

On the other end of the line, I can faintly hear

the sound of an unfamiliar man's voice.

“Who is this?”

The guy on the other end

shouts in a voice so loud I think it's going to blow out my eardrum.

“...Mika? The signal's bad! It's Nozomu! You remember? The guy who talked to you at lunch today!”

WTF? Nozomu?

The Nozomu who hits on all the girls? That Nozomu?

The guy who got Aya's number today... That Nozomu?

I start to panic.

I can't find

the words to reply.

I should just hang up. Shouldn't I?

Its really sad seeing Bou crying:'(